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<h1>Chapter 19</h1>
<div class="o-story_text o_epilogue type-rg type-sm line-caption line-copy pad-x-0 pad-x-lg pad-b-lg">
<p class="no-indent dirk"><span class="opener type-hs-opener-rg type-hs-opener-sm">A</span>nyway,
back to the B Plot.</p>
<p class="dirk">Right about now, Jade should be wrapping up her
political presentation to Roxy and Calliope, using a lot more
graphs and far fewer words than Dave did when roping her into the
election. Her approach is definitely more heady, but its also more
accessible. Jades got this disarming combo of head-in-the-clouds
flightiness and the kind of legit, down-to-earth cred that can only
be earned by having done something like cutting open your own
grandfather and stuffing him full of polyurethane foam.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="jade">JADE: so you see janes neoliberal austerity
measures—</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Roxy groans upon hearing the phrase
“neoliberal austerity measures” for no less than the third time in
this presentation.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="jade">JADE: as i outlined here in graph b-2</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: and here in figure a-6</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: and here!!! in this very spooky drawing i
dictated to callie</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: (great drawing by the way!!!)</p>
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: ^u^</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: —will no doubt lead to a whole bunch of ugly
societal backlashes</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: not just in economic terms but on a number of
other more serious vertices that weve been lucky enough to avoid on
new earth so far</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: u dont say</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: i DO say!!!</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: the thing is that jane is an establishment
leader</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: shes looking at doing things the way our old
universes did them</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: shes pretty convinced that shes going to be
able to replicate the capitalist hierarchies that earth had but in
a more “responsible” way</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: but none of that stuff actually
worked!!!!!</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: and u think karkat can do better?</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: i think its worth it to give him a chance</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: hes a leader of the people AND hes
experienced firsthand what happens when establishment goes too
far</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: which i imagine you can sympathize with!</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Jade takes a deep breath, panting a
little. Her graphs are floating around the living room in disarray.
She spins them around her, gliding her hands through the air like a
conductor, before folding the pages together and shrinking them to
pocket size.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="jade">JADE: and!!</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: thats my pitch!!!!</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Roxy and Calliope exchange a look.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: im...</p>
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: going to get Us tea and snacks. woUld
yoU like some, jade?</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: oh</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: yeah sure</p>
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: any preferences?</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: ummm pumpkin matcha if you have it</p>
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: of coUrse. ill be right back.</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Calliope excuses herself from the
conversation, and flees to the kitchen, seemingly making no attempt
to disguise the fact that she is in fact fleeing. Jade deflates as
she watches her go, sensing that her presentation wasnt the slam
dunk she was hoping for.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="jade">JADE: soooo..........</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: what do you think?</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: hmmmm</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: well i gotta say</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: this has been a hella convincing argument all
in all</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: buuuuut idk if i can help u out</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: what????</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: why not?!</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Roxy presses her lips together, then
bounces her palms on her knees. Her gaze slides east, right out the
window. She and Calliope live in a belfry above New Prospit. One
end of their living room is an oriel window that looks out over a
public park. The other disappears into an arcading hallway lit at
the far end by a giant stained glass window that Calliope made
herself. The corbels supporting it have windy, abstract shapes
carved into them. This room reminds Jade of her childhood home,
except that its bright and warm and not inhabited in all corners
by corpses and ghosts.</p>
<p class="dirk">Thats why she cant settle down. Thats what keeps
Jade Harley flitting from couch to couch, relationship to
relationship. She cant stop thinking to herself that “home” comes
awfully close to rhyming with “alone.”</p>
<p class="dirk">Home is John, who doesnt call anymore. Home is
when Rose and Kanaya welcome her in from a cold night and help her
set lyrics to her sick basslines. Home is here, snorting at Roxys
irreverent method of storytelling and admiring Callies art. Home
is Dave and Karkat. <em>Especially</em> Dave and Karkat. Jade knows
that this election is important for a number of reasons, but lets
not mistake her enthusiasm for some kind of humanistic altruism.
Girls got personal reasons for doing all this.</p>
<p class="dirk">Jade drifts down to sit cross-legged on the couch
beside Roxy. She stares at her with a doggish expression—eyes wide,
head lolling to the side—until she gets an answer.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="roxy">ROXY: i just dont rly</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: care about politics that much i guess</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Roxy turns to face Jade again, smiling
apologetically.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="roxy">ROXY: also this election is all kinds of
personal</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: i mean if i came into ur house and asked u to
make some grand political w/e against your bff</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: would you be all</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: oh yea totes sign me tf up</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: im alls ABOUT the sowing of discord among my
childhood friends</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: siiiigh let me guess</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: dirk got to you first</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: not even</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: i got no problem tellin dirk where to stick
it lmao</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: but dirks not the one running</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: you think hes NOT the one pulling the strings
behind the scenes?</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: sure but give janey a lil credit</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: shes got more moxie and ambition in her pinky
than the rest of us got all together</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: shes been planning this for years</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: but shes yknow</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: ruthless? :B</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Roxy frowns. Jade is being pretty
unfair.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="roxy">ROXY: *fragile*</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: shes gotta be miss perfect all the time for
the billboards n press meetings</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: always wearin those power suits trying to
look like a big bad bitch</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: you mean like....... the condesce?</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: wow ouch</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: im not just imagining it though, right???</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: you see it too</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: not to dredge up something horrible from your
history</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: but her whole image is just kinda......
*woof*</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: is that what you guys think?</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: u and dave and karkat?</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: well...</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: yeah</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Roxy leans forward and stares Jade down,
like shes searching for something behind Jades eyes. Jade
unwittingly responds in kind, looking for meaning behind Roxys
gaze. But she comes up empty. And to be honest, so do I.</p>
<p class="dirk">In the spirit of full disclosure, Roxys the only
one left I havent been able to crack. Her mind remains a total
enigma to me, just like it always has. If I had to guess, its her
Void powers that make her invisible, even to increasingly
omniscient parties such as myself. For all intents and purposes,
its like her thoughts dont exist. Shes the same person, as far
as I can tell. She still wears her heart on her sleeve. But the
bottom line remains: Roxy Lalonde is still utterly fucking
inscrutable.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="roxy">ROXY: well janes not perfect</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Roxy shrugs and runs a hand through her
hair, which has been recently cut shorter than usual.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="roxy">ROXY: and idk if shell be a good president</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: but shes not betty crocker</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: and i luv her and i dont wanna hurt her
feelings</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: and thats p much all there is to say on the
matter</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Calliope returns from the kitchen with
three cups, a handmade teapot, and some candied cakes. Jade finally
relents.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="jade">JADE: fiiiiine</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: i understand</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: callie what about you?</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Calliope sets down the snacks, and
brushes Jades skirt aside so she can sit down. She puts a claw to
her mouth and makes a facial expression more complicated than youd
think a skull would be capable of.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: oh, id rather stay Uninvolved, thank
yoU.</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: :(</p>
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: i feel like interfering in both
politics and a personal argUment between my friends woUld be
impolite as well as kind of... stressfUl, to be honest.</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: yeah</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: sorry callie i probably shouldnt have put all
that on you</p>
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: less apologizing, more snacking!</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Calliope claps her hands together. Its a
bright noise. Her tone of voice is bright too. All these years and
she still cant believe that she has so many friends. She smiles at
Jade, and Jade smiles back. The tea tastes great. The cakes are
even better. Callies an artist in everything she does.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="jade">JADE: wow callie youre such an amazing hostess!</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: hehehe roxy youre so lucky to have her</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Roxy giggles. Awkwardly. She gives Jade a
gentle jostle, an elbow to the ribs, and lowers her voice.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="roxy">ROXY: psst not “her,” “them”</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: oh</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Jade tenses up, and pales. Turns a
wide-eyed look to Calliope, who is still smiling politely. She
realizes, a bit too late, the profoundly insensitive nature of her
social misstep.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="jade">JADE: oh!!!!!!</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">She grabs one of Calliopes hands.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="jade">JADE: oh wow!</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: im sorry i didnt mean to be uh... culturally
insensitive?</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: have i just been stupidly calling you a girl
for years like a big fat dummy??</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: oh nooooo! im such an asshole!!!!!</p>
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: yoU are absolUtely not an
asshole!</p>
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: i didnt mind being called a girl. i
still dont really mind, its jUst not exactly... accUrate.</p>
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: bUt i did take comfort in “being a
girl” for a very long time. this is something ive only recently
decided.</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: yea...!</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Roxy pauses, even though the lilt of her
voice makes the sentence sound unfinished. She stutters the next
part out.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="roxy">ROXY: m-me too actually</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: you??</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: o yeah we are both a “they” household now</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: package deal thing</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: things r nonbinary as fuck around here</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Wait.</p>
<p class="dirk">What?</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="jade">JADE: really?</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: yup</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: well</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: i mean thats probably a dumb and bad way to
say it dont tell anyone i said it that way rofl</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: but yeah thats about whats goin on</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Roxy? Seriously?</p>
<p class="dirk">Like I said, fucking <em>inscrutable</em>.</p>
<p class="dirk">I never would have guessed. Not that Ive spent
much time contemplating issues related to gender. Im pretty secure
in my expression of masculinity, and...</p>
<p class="dirk">You know what? Fuck this. I dont owe anyone an
explanation of any sort on this topic. Im confident with who I am,
what I am, my gender, as well as my understanding of the concept.
You want my honest opinion? Its fucking fantastic. Good for them.
Both of them, I mean, but also, both of them in a singular fashion,
since each one can now individually be referred to by the
conventionally plural word “them.” Im ecstatic for this personal
development theyve embraced, for the people they are, the lack of
gender they identify with, and the pronouns they prefer. Ive got
no problem with it whatsoever, and frankly, its <em>fucking
insulting</em> anyone would ever imagine otherwise.</p>
<p class="dirk">So yeah, Im gonna allow it.</p>
<p class="dirk">Carry on.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="roxy">ROXY: wow that felt good to say aloud man</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: ahah hahaha hell of a way to come out</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: its ok</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: i dont wanna make you uncomfortable</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: i know</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: but i am curious!</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: if you need to talk about it i mean</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: maybe</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: callie and i have been talkin about it a
lot</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: unpackin all kinda baggage w/ their alien
stuff and my human stuff</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: and so i got to thinking</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: what even is gender</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: amirite lol?</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: oh yeah</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: that makes sense i guess........</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Jade looks at where her hands are folded
in her lap. Bites her lip. She has her own concerns about this, her
own thoughts. Reasonable thoughts, Id say. But Ill refrain from
any further comment. Im staying away from this subject, from now
on.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="jade">JADE: so youre uh</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: not...... “doing gender” anymore??</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: ya i guess not lmfao</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: i mean that was all stuff from our old
universe</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: whyd we even bring it here right?</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: right</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Calliope takes a teacake between two of
her claws and eats it delicately, hyper-aware of the horrible
gnashing and snapping her powerful jaw is capable of.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: my ideas aboUt gend—</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">SHIT. Between two of <em>their</em>
claws. They take a teacake between two of their claws and eats it
delicately. Sorry, my bad.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: —er were entirely inflUenced by my
time watching earth.</p>
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: i sUppose i only thoUght of myself as
a girl because my, Um...</p>
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: my brother took mascUlinity qUite
serioUsly.</p>
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: by which i mean, he became very
enthUsiastic aboUt all the things it sUpposedly meant to be a
boy.</p>
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: cherUb existence is dichotomoUs, bUt
not in the same way hUman biology is.</p>
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: i sUppose oUr view of hUman cUlture
indirectly inflUenced alternias development, which in tUrn
affected yoUrs, which is something ive had a lot of time to think
aboUt since we came here.</p>
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: its all so very circUitoUs and
arbitrary.</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: yeah exactly!</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: like when u think about it...</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: so much of what earth c thinks what boys and
girls “SHOULD” do comes straight from the imagination of a bunch of
dumb teens</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: which is totally FUCKED</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: sure</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Jade nods quite thoughtfully. Shed be a
doggys fucking uncle if she wasnt gonna come across woke as hell
about all this. Truthfully though, it <em>was</em> making sense to
her. Eye-opening, really. Why hadnt anyone told her this was even
an option when she was younger? She probably would have loved being
a “they” when she was a teen.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="roxy">ROXY: i mean what am i gonna do</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: get married and pop out 100 bbs?</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: uh... no???</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: exactly</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: i mean once upon a time i guess i thought
about that</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: but i dont think its what i really wanted</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: i just liked the idea of me and dirk makin
some smart ass awesome kids together</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: cuz i liked the idea of dirk</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: and also literally no one else on the entire
planet was alive at the time</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: but we had some babies without even bein
consulted about it anyway so w/e</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: your kids ARE pretty cool</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: i KNOW right?</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: personally im a big fan!</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">And like that, Jades smiling again. The
storm clouds pass so quickly in her world, you almost wouldnt have
thought there was anything wrong at all. Roxy and Calliope
certainly didnt notice.</p>
<p class="dirk">But there is something wrong. And this time,
theyll notice.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="jade">JADE: i...</p>
<p class="jade">JADE: i.........</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Jade drops her tea. The cup hits the
floor and shatters.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="roxy">ROXY: jade?</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">She takes in a sharp breath. Shes not
feeling well suddenly. Shes dizzy, feverish, seeing things beyond
her field of vision. A blinding flash of light. A black, perfect
circle, burning a hole in her eyes. She tries to stand, but her
knees wobble and knock together. Roxy shoots out of her seat and
catches her before she hits the floor.</p>
<div class="chat type-rg type-hs-small">
<p class="roxy">ROXY: o shit</p>
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: is she okay?</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: idk</p>
<p class="roxy">ROXY: get a cloth from the kitchen! and some
water!</p>
<p class="calliope">CALLIOPE: okay! ill be right back!</p>
</div>
<p class="no-indent dirk">Roxy eases Jade onto the couch and checks
her pulse. She doesnt look bad at all— Jade wears unconsciousness
well, having spent the better part of her life napping. Roxy slaps
her cheeks lightly and says her name. Begs her to wake up.</p>
<p class="dirk">But she cant hear her. Jade is somewhere else
right now.</p>
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